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stuff for sale

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 21:58:16 GMT

cd's

Anberlin-blueprints for the blackmarket
Ballydowse-out of the fertile crescent
the blackjacks- blood and sweat
blaster the rocketman- the monster who ate Jesus
cock sparrer- shock troops
crashdog- 8 years to nowhere
five o'clock people- the nothing venture
flatfoot56- the waves of war and knuckles up re release
the hanover saints- blood, guts, and glory
havalina rail co.- america
Headnoise- for now we know part 1
the Israelites- washaway
Kat Jones- the glory green ep
The last hope- no title and violence, vengeance, and retribution
Lori Shea- Tell out
Mercury Radio Theater- blue eyed model
90lb wuss- self titled and where meager die of self interest
Oingo Boingo- nothing to fear
One21- when the dragon is finally laid to rest
Our Corpse Destroyed- avenge your city
Psalters- us. vs. us., live in ohio, and the divine liturgy of the wretched exiles
the remnants- songs from the hell hole and bang bang bang
the subject- christinas new hope
the wednesdays- midnight songs in the time of war
Zippy Josh- all three albums
the dingees- armaggedon massive

Books
fahrenheit 451
the time machine
the complete hitchhikers guide to the galaxy
the great divorce
the hunchback of notre dame
the grapes of wrath
the invisible man
war of the worlds
the screwtape letters
a wrinkle in time
mere christianity

misc.
a vhs video camera
eagle figurines
attack of the killer tomatoes poster

clothes
longsleeve white t-shirt
akeldama band shirt
deadbillys band towell
one pair of black dickies pants
one patched up military jacket

all of this needs to be gone and will help with traveling expenses thanks to all of you

music and movies for sale

Sun, 02 Apr 2006 23:24:04 GMT

movies

1.bubba hotep
2.lost in translation
3.Last Days
4.Kung Pow
5.Land of the dead

Music
1.five iron frenzy-the end is near
2.the havoc-road warrior
3.the remnants-bang bang, songs from the hell hole
4.Zippy Josh-live album, excess baggage, stupidville
5.ACX-both albums
6.Kat Jones-la rosa, la calavera
7.one21-the dragons is finally laid to rest
8.Ballydowse-out of the fertile crescent
9.the subject-christinas last hope
10.israelites-washaway
11.cocksparrer-shock troops
12.flatfoot56-knuckles up, waves of war
13.the blackjacks-blood and sweat
14.raised by wolves-hot blood
15.the last hope
16.the dingees-armageddon massive
17.the hanover saints-blood, guts, glory
18.90lb wuss-silf titled, where meager die of self interest
19.Psalters-Live, us vs. us
20.ted dancin machine-want me
21.five o clock people-the nothing venture
22.Leper-untitled

if you are interested in any of these, name a price and i will ship them out to you

Fri, 03 Feb 2006 19:08:41 GMT

i have cd's for sale. and if anyone is interested respond and i will name off what i have.

Sun, 27 Nov 2005 21:51:14 GMT

lately i have been feeling really torn apart and shredded by the things of this world. as the days pass here, i really feel distant in my heart and struggle to find balance in my walk with Yeshua. No longer do i feel refreshed in HIS presence, but hard pressed to find comfort in daily living. It seems to get harder daily, weekly, monthly, yearly to find hope in a ravaged place. i have been a mediator for my room mates and it is not fun, i have been really disliking my work. the more i work there, the more it seems like everyone is depressed and does not seem to have joy in there empty shells. Everything is killing me here. i know what to live. but it is hard when it seems like everyone is against you and no matter how much you want to help people you always feel drained or empty and cannot truly give the needs of people. that is my current update after so long. pray your heart out for all the saints and may the LORD truly be with you. Shalom

my head is exploding like goat cheese on mars

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 17:26:44 GMT

i really have nothing to say. this was originally going to be an update with poems and bible notes, but i changed my mind. So you can fill in the blanks in you wish. one day i was walking on the ___________. i saw_______ in the distance and it made me__________. Finally i woke up from a being knocked out by a wild___________. This made me cringe. Later on that day i saw______ and they ended up running away when i tried to give them a __________. Are you my friend i tell them with a megaphone. While doing this they proceeded to ___________. After such a chaotic day, i was really tired and decided to fall asleep on a ________. The end! _____________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________________

two and a half days with sore ribs

Thu, 07 Jul 2005 18:26:47 GMT

My vacation is nearing an end and i would rather be somewhere other than Oregon. The trip to cornerstone took and total of almost five days there and back again. During the festival i was able to truly serve with the Glen Clark family at the Jesus Village. If you have never met Glen Clark or his family, you need to someday. This year at the festival was different for me since i spent more time actually just hanging out rather than going to shows. Flatfoot56 had some amazing shows. One in which a few people got injured. myself being one of them caused a elbow to get thrown into my ribs. After this elbow sent me to the ground there was non stop pain in my ribs for the rest of the fest. Which caused a lack of moshing or tons of movement to take place the rest of the time. Which was good anyways, since i really needed to relax and get my mind off of things in Oregon. Upon stumbling into a smaller generator stage a canadian ska band was gracious enough to allow me to sing a song about marshmallows and do a spoken word during their sets. It was a blast and i could not get away from people screaming out marshmallows at me for the rest of the festival. i really had a hard time wanting to head back to Oregon. There seems to be nothing left for me to hold onto here in this state. My heart is really in the midwest or just wandering around to help serve those doing true ministry outside of the walls of a building. Needless to say that at the end of the festival i really felt like staying and never coming back to that which has no hold on my life any longer. i pretty much lost everyone friend wise here in Oregon. Sure i have friends here, but there are only one or two that really encourage me. All the other people i have hungout with seem to be dragging me down. it is time to move on and get away from this place of despair. For all those who read this can you keep me in prayer. i know i will be heading back to school, but where that is going to be i do not have a clue at all. Skipping back to the festival news. The hardest thing that i had to endure hearing was that we miss you Phillip when are you going to come back? We want to to come back and stay. Come back. After hearing this my heart was really torn in two. i really do not know what to do anymore. It just feels like Oregon is no longer my home and that i need to move on. But where to. I have no idea. Thanks for listening and may the LORD truly bless you all. Shalom! i will be posting more poems and bible notes soon. This entry was more of what has been on my heart since leaving the fest. thanks again for listening.

coming from a miracle

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 00:29:40 GMT

poems that have recently come to me.

Dwelling-Arms as eagles wing gather strength in the temple of praise. Foundations torn down while a new building process comes from the hand of YAHWEH.

One Nation under GOD-
Burning flames surround the hearts of believers sweeping through a broken nation. Winds blow fire allowing mighty destruction to refine and purify those who feel the burn. No longer will the heat be extinguished. Children become torched by by the midst of unity binding one nation together with principles founded upon Christ. One nation under GOD, indivisible with liberty and justice for all.

Open eyes see the endless glory-
Entering a city upon the gates transformation takes place. Deep rooted vines surround hearts touched by endless mercy. Lights out seems to haunt those who are lost in the dark. Quickly glory comes in clouds to break spells of chaos and disbelief in the earth. Broken chains fall to the ground, releasing children before the LORD Himself. Peace flows from hands as water sweeps throughout the world. Hidden no longer by eyes, Y'SHUA waltzes gracefully upon the planet as praise breaks forth grasping HIS children to bring them to eternal rest forever.

i do not care if you dont

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 00:06:33 GMT

4-17-1998
Obey the LORD and HE shall do mighty works through you. If you stray away from HIS presence HIS anger shall be against you. The LORD always finds a way to set you free from bondage.

4-18-1998
The LORD will work miracles in your life to free you from the slavery of sin and of the world.

4-20-1998
Y'SHUA is able to defeat the enemies that seek to destroy us, but we have to be willing to seek HIM face to face. In this the enemy will be defeated in your life. The LORD shall provide all that you need, just be willing to accept all that HE is offering you in your life.

4-21-1998
The LORD shall reveal HIMSELF to you. All you have to do is be willing and step out in faith to see HIM face to face.

this day needs to be buried forever.

Mon, 14 Feb 2005 18:53:22 GMT

4-13-1998
The LORD shall bless you no matter what as long as you follow HIM with all your heart, soul, mind, and strength.

4-14-1998
GOD is precious if you allow HIM to be the true GOD. The LORD always uses situations good or bad to benefit the lives of others.

4-16-1998
The LORD is gracious, HE helps us get through our tough times and is able to carry us through the dark times of life. The LORD is the great I AM. YESHUA will help you out as long as you are willing to listen to HIM and obey HIS command.

my back aches and my knees are sore in the old age

Wed, 09 Feb 2005 23:02:51 GMT

4-5-1998
The LORD GOD Almighty shall bless and prosper you as long as you seek HIS face daily in abundance. The LORD shall give you favor in peoples lives as long as you acknowledge that HE is totally there for you.

4-8-1998
The LORD is awesome and will always be around to help those who seek HIS face completely.

4-9-1998
The LORD shows you favor as long as you totally obey HIM and stay away from sin.

4-10-1998
Trust totally in the LORD and HE shall provide for you everything you need in every situation in life. The LORD always provides all you need one way or another.

things to remember

Mon, 07 Feb 2005 18:32:19 GMT

4-1-1998
The LORD wants us to give HIM everything in order for HIM to acknowledge that we are HIS and HE shall bless us for this.

4-2-1998
The LORD shall truly bless you as long as you trust HIM and know that He shall give you all that you need in your life.

4-3-1998
The LORD shall be with you as long as you are ready to accept the place HE has given you in the book of life.

4-4-1998
The LORD always comes in our brokenness to help us get through the toughest areas of our life.

Mon, 03 Jan 2005 19:16:09 GMT

Job chapter 32
Even the young when listening to the LORD can speak truth into the lives of elders. But choose words wisely for some are full of deceit by the hands of the enemy.

Job chapter 33
In order to keep man safe from himself the LORD shall take away things that destroy him in the long run. When seeking the LORD your days will be refreshed and held in HIS hands. When honesty runs your life, the LORD honors that. In this Elohim will rescue you from the pit and put you into the light of HIS mercy

Fri, 03 Dec 2004 01:22:00 GMT

Job chapter 29.
Job was highly regarded as a captain for the people. In his service to the LORD such a high respect was given to him from all people. The blessing allowed him to keep the peace and justice for those who needed to be set free from the bondage of oppressors.

Job chapter 31.
The LORD will listen to you even without you knowing it. When you cannot feel or hear YESHUA, then the patience of the LORD shall hear what is spoken from your heart. In this HE shall bless you highly for the work you are doing for the sake of HIS kingdom.

Today not tomorrow.
Here and now I stand in the midst of MY precious children. Among pure and sacrificial hearts MY presence is known. Today not tomorrow praise MY name for each day has enough trouble of it's own.

Wed, 01 Dec 2004 23:47:44 GMT

Job Chapter 27.
Even when all things were taken away from Job. He did not cease from praising the LORD in all HIS righteousness. In the case of the wicked they are rejected to the point of disfavor. Since they do not follow the law or seek after the LORD in HIS mercy.

Job chapter 28.
Only when you trust and give your whole self to the LORD that it will be possible for wisdom to enter your life.

Tue, 23 Nov 2004 22:44:41 GMT

Job chapter 24
The darkness is an easy way for sin to creep in. Since in full light targets are sought out for an attack on innocent lives.

Job chapters 25 and 26
The LORD is mindful of man in the point that creation is a beautiful thing. Nothing that the darkness can do is ever hidden from the ONE whos sees all things.

Mon, 22 Nov 2004 18:43:44 GMT

Job chapter 15
LORD either those in our lives are for us or against us. there is no middle ground. Either the world is controlling their thoughts and actions or YOU are in control of their lives.

Job chapter 16.
The hearts condition whether it be good or bad shall be known to the LORD. For we have no concept of understanding in our nature as humans in the spiritual realm.

In America.
Slaughtering of thousands pile up in burning heaps. Symbols of freedom bring death upon cultures etched in stone. Christians and Sinners are the same among destruction. Civilizations wiped from america in settling disputes takes place. Freedom in Christ became death in the name of Jesus. Founded on Christian beliefs, HA! Destroy in the name of satan is more like it in America.

Fri, 19 Nov 2004 00:44:15 GMT

Job chapter 13
LORD You are so patient with us and You know what is going on in the unseen even though we do not.

Job Chapter 14.
LORD You hide things and reveal things on a daily basis to Your children. Since Your ways are higher than ours. The understanding we have is limited to te eternal being everlasting which is You.

Simple Love Song.
Splashing in puddles of joy as the love of Jesus fills simple yet complex hearts. Looking skyward, the rain and rainbow fulfill promises of ages past. Halos surround blessed children singing praises in the courts of the MOST High. Praise Yeshua for all things great and small.

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 18:25:26 GMT

Job chapter 7.
Even in the complaints and bitterness of the soul the LORD always hears every word spoken.

Job chapter 8.
When those around you speak words which are not beneficial to you, they tear you apart on a daily basis with emptiness.

LORD Your hand are filled with water which is dumped out among all people. Streets are filled as water inhabits as the spirit floods hearts. Cups run over as the overflow of anointing takes place. Worship breaks upon Zion like the dawn of glory has been revealed. Righteousness clings to hearts seeking out the LORD MOST HIGH. The world speaks JEHOVAH the LORD above all else. Be not ashamed lest I be ashamed of you my children.

Mon, 15 Nov 2004 20:11:48 GMT

Job chapter 5.
Words are already known to you then they are meaningless when the closeness of the LORD surrounds you always.

Job chapter 6.
When the words of the world come and when the world uses actions against you. Abusing the fear and seeking of the LORD will no longer dwell in your heart. For the blindness has overtaken the spirit in your life.

Ultimate Hippie-
Backwards beatnik hat, calicoe patchwork pants, colorful tiedye shirts and sandals to boot. Sharp looking peace symbol necklaces and rings. Verbal usage Hey Man! An ultimate hippie seeks truth, justice and a peaceful way. Man!

Sun, 14 Nov 2004 20:29:36 GMT

Job 4
The LORD is in all and knows the hearts of the perishing. When time comes for all to pass away, nothing is hidden from the LORD. All things are in control by HIS hands alone.

My heart is full as i rest on my knees. Surrounded i become by heavenly hosts in praise. Celebration fills my heart with praise for the Almighty. Tears are shed as a touch from the LORD breaks my senses. Day to day courts of worship are endless when seeking the unseen. No longer part of the world, but transformed by the renewal of mind.

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 23:38:55 GMT

Job chapter 2.
The LORD in HIS power will protect a person strong in righteousness. No matter how much damage is going on, the LORD is always in control if you are willing to look behind the scenes.

Pierced for iniquities on one splintered tree. Wood sticks to a meat grinded back. Innocence was HIS heart even though the temple become defiled. Broken for fulfillment of prophecy, the SON of man went quietly to the cross. No blasphemy was found on HIS lips. Let go off all the weight of worldly desires. It Is Finished!

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 01:13:54 GMT

Poetry titled streetlights and cigarettes.
Walking alone covered by thick clouds in a big city.
Streetlights guide wanderers as the rain gently falls upon their heads.
Click on the lighter when silents puff upon a seemingly endless cigarette takes place. Cares have been lifted only for a moment in time when stress has been released upon nicotine. Darkened worlds find streets filled with lonesome puffing on cigarettes while streetlights guide them alone.

Poetry titled: NEw seed.
Breath of life falls as snowflakes on a cold winters morning. Stealthily unseen creatures walk through the four corners of the globe. North, west, east, and south they prey upon the innocence born among the fallen. Hope for one tree takes place in replanting of seed. Fresh life provides evidence with sprouted up of new life found from whispered grace on the lips of the Almighty Eternal.

bible notes. Job chapter 1.
When the enemy thinks he can take you down from the service of the LORD, he will try and do so to the best of his ability.

Wed, 01 Sep 2004 17:13:07 GMT

good bye livejournal. no more updates. i am done with this. Good bye. if anyone wants to get in touch with me. send an e-mail or a letter, i will give my address if you want it. or you can call which i will give my phone number if you want it. Thanks for all your time. LORD BLess you all and have a great day.

Wed, 18 Aug 2004 17:48:11 GMT

i cannot wait for the day of the LORD's return. constantly struggling daily is not fun. i am not satisfied with things in my life, for i know there is more that i can be doing. there are so many opportunities that are missed and i am tired of missing them. i want to be real and love all that i meet on a daily basis. i am tired of not acknowledging people who try and talk to me. also i am not satisfied with being complacent. the harvest is plentiful, and the workers are few. i want to be a worker in this harvest. no longer will i sit down when standing and moving needs to take place.

rayefrenzy be strong for numerous blessings are going to be upon your life. more so than you can even imagine.

atimetoheal no matter where you go there you are. do not fear the unknown, for the LORD has the plan of your life worked out.

born_to_die77 when answers are hard to find, be still and listen to the still small voice that has everything you are seeking out in HIS hands. whatever answers you have they are going to be answered as long as you trust in HIM.

Sat, 14 Aug 2004 17:06:13 GMT

this week Phillip crashed his bike, flew over the handle bars and cut his hands open. and the very next day had his bike stolen. now onto the weekend. all day festival today.